Hello there, how are you doing? Me, well things are kind of a rollercoaster of emotions, thoughts and plans. I wanted to be real with you! I don't want to be fake and put on a front!
I have been doing a lot of thinking over the last few weeks. My mind and heart have not been in a good place if I am being honest. So with that I have had to do some deep soul searching and thinking of what I want to do and what I want to offer from this day forward. This business is hard at times. Its either feast or famine and trying to make all clients happy and myself can be super hard. I pour so much of my soul into my work and there are many days I feel like I am lost. Why-cause I have lost myself in trying to do what others want and trying to compete. So then I don't create what I want to be truly creating. When my mom passed away (will be 3 years next month) I really lost myself. I let my bad thoughts and feelings take over my life for way to long. That first year I just pushed and pushed and kept myself busy. Then all the crazy things happened in the world and I crashed in my mind and heart. And got super lost!
So I have decided to make some big changes in my life and my business. I am getting much better-healing is hard. I have some good days and bad days. I have finally decided to start doing what I want to do and create what I want to create. Yes of course my clients thoughts, needs and wants will be included in that.
As much as I Love having a studio space, that space is eating up my health and profit. I stress so much trying to make enough to pay and keep that and bring some money home. Honestly it sucks the life and creativity out of me. They always say go with the decision that scares you the most so that you can grow. I feel it is time for me to grow and change to become a better me and a better photographer. So I have been thinking long and hard on this. I know I may lose some clients over this but I guess if you Love my work/art it won't matter. :) I think it is time to let the studio space go! Go back to photographing my amazing clients in their homes, my home and or on location! I truly feel this is the best thing I can do for this business and my health! So I really hope that all my amazing present, past and future clients will stick around! Truly if it weren't for all of you I wouldn't have a business. It means the World to me, that I get to be part of your moments and help capture those special moments in your life!
I hope that sharing my feelings and thoughts on mental health doesn't lose me business. I want to be real with you--not fake! I am looking forward to this year and the changes that are coming! I hope to see you all through these changes. I promise this is a good thing. With that being said I have a ton of items that I will be getting rid of at the studio that need to be sold! I will have a ton of newborn backdrops, wraps and props that will be to be gone! I am going to be going a little different when it comes to my newborn sessions. They are one of my favorite types of sessions but I feel I need to change the way I do them! I am so excited about this change! I think you will be too! Hope to see you come along with me in the new year!
*I am not sure when the date will be when I move out of my space yet. It will be in the next few weeks or month or so! I need time to sell a bunch of stuff and make the changes! I just wanted to get this out there for now that changes are coming! :)
I love to create art from your memories from newborn, HS Seniors, families and so much more. Capturing the little moments in your life for your to cherish for a lifetime.